| Feeling | Kinda alright, kinda not |
| Drinking | Instant coffee |
| Craving | A goddamn cigaretteš (had to quit because I have hair loss and smoking makes it worse) |
So I decided to add a blog to my site. 
Sure I could've used some
other site like Tumblr or whatever other sites people use for blogging
but I just thought making one from scratch would be more fun. As of writing
this, my site is heavily under construction because I decided to remake the whole
thing but I am having fun working on it Ł©(ļ½”ā¢Ģāæā¢Ģļ½”)Ū¶
I hope this side of my site
will stay positive so others would have fun reading my writings. Don't get me
wrong, I'm not only trying to stay positive for others' sake, I would feel
happier myself to have plenty of positive entries on my blog!
To tell you a bit about how I've been, I've been depressed, scared, and
otherwise struggling with my C-PTSD but I've also had lots of happy moments.
I've been finding joy in doing creative work like working on the site, doodling,
and taking photos with the digicam i bought! 
Working on the site has been fun lately. I'd love to have hand-drawn assets on my site that I've made myself like tiled backgrounds and stuff
but every time I try to draw something for my site it never really looks the way I want to :''D
Today I had a look at some lolita fashion and jirai kei TikToks and thought I wanted to maybe try out dressing similarly too. I'm not saying I wanna "larp" being lolita or jirai or any other subculture, it's just that I felt inspired to possibly try dressing very femininely too sometime! I can't really think of one single style that feels like "me" but I do sort of lean towards twee/whimsytwee, tweemo, "whimsy," and maximalism (or at the very least just non-minimalistic if that makes sense) but I might end up wanting to dress in various different styles.
See you in the next entry!
